It is more than loneliness

Dear Samantha, Gareth and Elaine,



I will write about the idea of being lonely and how its concept and the way I visualize it have changed to become something more than a feeling. It is a part of my life now.



Before leaving my country to the United Kingdom, many thoughts crossed my mind about being lonely or rather feeling homesick there. As an endeavor to tackle this problem before it starts to conquer me, I thought it would be a great idea to write all my friends' contact numbers and E-mail addresses before I leave! In this way, I can be in touch with them every time I am lonely.




However, you will be astonished that all that changed and I realized that loneliness is more than missing your family, country or friends.




During my stay here in the UK without my beloved ones, I managed to grasp the implications of being lonely and became aware that I could be lonely, but happier that anyone else! To make it clearer, I will provide you with my new concept for loneliness.


Now, I realize that loneliness is not missing your beloved ones, it is something more than that. I mean you can be lonely in your home and among your family, so what is real loneliness?



I will define it using my own new understanding of it. It is when you feel strange, even in your home, and feel lost and can not find your way out of the maze of life. In this way, you feel like no one is willing to help you or think of you, and imagine that all people look at you as a stranger.... this is the genuine loneliness.



Consequently, I do not pay any attention to these depressing thoughts about being lonely and walk in Nottingham, London or anywhere bearing in mind that all people are my friends and no one holds grudge against me.





Live long and prosper